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not long ago. Pastor sat me down and went thru a list of things to encourage me. And listening to the things that she mentioned, tear starts to swell and my heart soften.

2009 wasn't a easy year for me. I felt like my dream was like a bubble that burst into thin air when I missed important deadline for my uni application and I realised that I didn't manage to get a placing in local uni. I was really discouraged after so many years of trying and waiting. eventually I didn't get to where I wanted. But circumstances in life, cornered me to make a choice to be happy, to be positive and to be ready to shoulder on responsibilities that noone, not even myself, believe that I can survive the pressure and demands to make it possible.

to see thru the renovation of church. my second new home.

the hot afternoons of meeting agents to view places after places, the early mornings of queuing for building plans, the evening rush to submit application before the office called it a day, the late night to skim thru the coordination of contractors.

day after day, you sleep thinking about the next day and you wake up thinking about the day before. I would say, tt I lost track of time as the days pass.

And I will go to God, to tell Him about everything tt bothered me. my inabilities. my failures. my inexperience. I tell him how much I want to let go as the days go by. But faced with wave after wave of setbacks, I decided to lie by the beach, cling on the sand as the waves punched me on my face, my conscious and my spirit.

I felt tt I am going to lose it all.

But I held on to what I decided in the beginning: "I will never let go, even if I lose everything. because I trust You Lord."

Sometimes, I regret some prayers I made. as prayers are the keys to unlock the doors in our lives. But it will be even a great regret that I never opens those doors, because "unless you are tested, you wouldn't know where you stand - in the fence, on the fence or out of the fence."

But trial and testing has its season. after each season, you come out stronger, better and greater.

And 2010 is gonna be a great year. And I just want to live life well. to live a livable life. Its the beginning of something great that's gonna happen. And the difference between last year and this year, I am gonna be more discipline. And that's an anti-thesis of who I am, but I am gonna try.

1 year. 4 cycles. 240 days of hardwork. working hard is like totally not me. but I didn't set out to me, but to be my Creator. 240 days. I believe it can be done.

Here is where my inner world hides & lies


Biodata: Male 55kg
Birthday: 24 March
Love: God. Revival Nation. Ushers Ministry. Children Church. Hangouts w friends. a good Laughter.
Hate: dead still Silent. playing Com games. watching Boring sitcoms. do nothing & Waste time.
Dream: to be part of something Great. to see lives change one @ a time. to be Riche Rich.

not long ago. Pastor sat me down and went thru a list of things to encourage me. And listening to the things that she mentioned, tear starts to swell and my heart soften.

2009 wasn't a easy year for me. I felt like my dream was like a bubble that burst into thin air when I missed important deadline for my uni application and I realised that I didn't manage to get a placing in local uni. I was really discouraged after so many years of trying and waiting. eventually I didn't get to where I wanted. But circumstances in life, cornered me to make a choice to be happy, to be positive and to be ready to shoulder on responsibilities that noone, not even myself, believe that I can survive the pressure and demands to make it possible.

to see thru the renovation of church. my second new home.

the hot afternoons of meeting agents to view places after places, the early mornings of queuing for building plans, the evening rush to submit application before the office called it a day, the late night to skim thru the coordination of contractors.

day after day, you sleep thinking about the next day and you wake up thinking about the day before. I would say, tt I lost track of time as the days pass.

And I will go to God, to tell Him about everything tt bothered me. my inabilities. my failures. my inexperience. I tell him how much I want to let go as the days go by. But faced with wave after wave of setbacks, I decided to lie by the beach, cling on the sand as the waves punched me on my face, my conscious and my spirit.

I felt tt I am going to lose it all.

But I held on to what I decided in the beginning: "I will never let go, even if I lose everything. because I trust You Lord."

Sometimes, I regret some prayers I made. as prayers are the keys to unlock the doors in our lives. But it will be even a great regret that I never opens those doors, because "unless you are tested, you wouldn't know where you stand - in the fence, on the fence or out of the fence."

But trial and testing has its season. after each season, you come out stronger, better and greater.

And 2010 is gonna be a great year. And I just want to live life well. to live a livable life. Its the beginning of something great that's gonna happen. And the difference between last year and this year, I am gonna be more discipline. And that's an anti-thesis of who I am, but I am gonna try.

1 year. 4 cycles. 240 days of hardwork. working hard is like totally not me. but I didn't set out to me, but to be my Creator. 240 days. I believe it can be done.